Spotting

My period is supposed to start in 5 days and I have been spotting since yesterday and it’s light pink. But I think my chances of getting pregnant again is slim. I unexpectedly found out I was pregnant last February 2017. It was a very wild emotional roller coaster ride. I thought after 4 pregnancies and 5 losses I was finally going to have my first child. He was due October and came June 6 the week before my bday due to IC. I was and still truly devastated because for the first time I was sure he was going to make it after having the cerclage done!😢😢😢 i turned 41 last Thursday and just feel it’s not going to ever happen for me again.