Why does every guy make seeing me secret? :(

The guy I’m talking to now doesn’t want me to take pictures with him. I’m only allowed to post approved ones and not tag him in them. He doesn’t want his family to ask questions but I’m not really allowed to mention it to the groups we met through either

The one before my friends still don’t know about because I was ashamed. He started a Facebook relationship with someone else in the hour between me buying him dinner and watching a movie together

The guy before that didn’t want anyone to know we were sexual. I ended up being one of 11 girls he was flirting with. Dated two other girls instead of me and pulled me back in whenever he was lonely

One guy kept our three month relationship a secret even from our friends :( when I found out he was with someone else the whole time he said I made it up and spread lies about me, called me crazy. Told everyone personal things I told him in private

My big ex wouldn’t let me meet his friends or family even though we dated for two years. He didn’t ever want to interact with mine either. He ended up using tinder to cheat on me

Even the first time I thought I was in love as a kid, he was dating other girls while telling me he loved me in secret. I only broke it off when he got a girlfriend without telling me and now they’re married

Why aren’t I good enough for a guy to actually pick me? :((( why am I always the runner up, dirty secret?