I left Abusive bf I'm 5 months pregnant.. Aftermath

I'm 33 got involved w this abusive man that shook me to the core of my existence. Hes textbook abusive controlling manipulative judgmental etc. We had a few physical altercations but alot of it was emotional. He never liked my family but would play both sides. He lied to me about everything but always blamed everyone else. The breaking point he got me pregnant n shortly after assaulted my father in a drunken rage after I finally broke up w him. Cops were involved n he hasn't showed up since n I'm hoping he stays away. I made it clear I want nothing to do w him n he's not wanted in my child's life. My children's, this is my third, safety are at state here and I don't trust him at all. Now I'm going thru all these feelings of resentment, anger, loss, sadness, depression, I'm bipolar 1. This has been the hardest time in my life. My other kids father has showed up for me n supports me n is going to step up for my new baby n show her that she will have a dad. I'm happy about that, but these mini episodes I have of anxiety n depression not wanting to do anything w my dad I'm loosing my mind. I'm having flashbacks of times w this abuser n it just hits me all at once. Not to mention I'm pregnant and going thru being uncomfortable most days I'm still throwing up its so hard. Crying episodes, my life my kids my kids father that most of the time I'm not sure I wanna be with. Any advice, any words.