Miscarriage - 6 weeks

I figured I would post this here to talk about my miscarriage.. having telling a couple of my closest friends they find it so awkward to talk about.. why is there such a stigma around miscarriages? Why is it so awkward to talk about? It happens to 1 in 4 women. I am that 1 in 4.

I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of June. I had really sore boobs for a week or two - thinking it was just my period coming. I took a test just before hopping into the shower telling myself “it is going to be negative, don’t get your hopes up” once I came out, I saw the positive and I was so excited!! I kept the secret in from my husband because I wanted to tell him by doing something special for him. When he came home he saw the onesie and the positive pregnancy test - we were so happy and crying!

I woke up that Sunday and just as my husband was leaving for work, I went to the bathroom and was bleeding so heavily. I kept telling myself that maybe this was normal? I called my doctor the next day and got in right away. She told me that based on my last period, I was somewhere between 5-6 weeks along, as well as some women do bleed and it doesn’t necessarily mean I was miscarrying - I got some blood work done and was going to have an ultrasound the following day. That following day I had the worst cramps and heavy bleeding, I knew I was losing this baby. The ultrasound tech told me she couldn’t tell me anything and that my doctor would call me later with my results. That evening my doctor called and told me my levels were not were they should be for 5/6 weeks and that my ultrasound showed that my baby was no longer there. That was the hardest day of my life. The heartbreak is real, so real.

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