I just need a minute ...

Today I’d be 11 weeks 5 days... preparing my public announcement... probably starting to show a little. I should be bursting with excitement. But instead I’m still trying to pick up the pieces after my miscarriage. Every day is different.. most are ok, but today was one of the bad ones.

I come home from work.. crack open a drink and take a sip and in that moment my husband walks in from work and informs me that one of our close friends is pregnant. 11 weeks. My heart instantly broke and I couldn’t hold back the tears.

Now I know what everyone is going to say ..

“Be happy for them!”

“You don’t know how long they’ve been trying!”

“Maybe they’ve experienced loss too”

And you’re right ... those things may be true.

But please.. just LET ME be sad for one minute!

I need a minute to not be ok

I need a minute to not be happy for them

I need a minute to be jealous

I need a minute to be angry at the world.. at God.. at everyone!

I just need a minute.. so please let me feel what I need to feel for just a minute

Has anyone else had someone announce that they’re due when you should have been? I’m having a hard time 😔