I didn't know where or who else to talk about this with and I just figured I should finally talk to somebody or at least get my story out there. I am using a fake name but baby steps right? So whenever I was 14-15 one of my stepbrothers (he was 27) molested me in and around my own home without my parents or brothers finding out. To this day no one knows except for my boyfriend and my closest friend. And they don't even know the whole story. He would do horrible things to me and at the time I didnt understand that what he was doing was seriously wrong. I was a bit of a sheltered kid back then. He would repeatedly put his hands inside my bra and try to put his hands in my panties but I always somehow stopped him before he could do anything. Then he moved into the house with my parents and would try to sneak into my room while everyone was asleep and get into my bed with me. I fortunately always woke up in time to run away and hide in the bathroom and sit in there till I had school the next morning or whenever he finally gave up and left. Looking back I feel stupid for not running down to my parents room and telling them everything. Right then. I'm not posting this so people will pitty me. I'm posting this because I finally am comfortable enough to admit what happened and try to come to terms with it. I don't know what to do or who to tell but it makes me mad that he's happily married now with kids and he doesn't lose any sleep over what he put me through but I cry every time I try to ball up and tell someone. I hate him for what he did and now I feel that it's too late to come clean and that he never has to pay for what he did to me.