Dear my baby that would be in my arms in Only 14 days. I’m sorry that we both don’t get that opportunity. I’m sorry that we never got to properly met. I’m sorry that I only heard your heart beat. And still to this day, and every day I think, of what I could do, to have you back inside of me. I miss you. Mummy loves you so much and can not bear what she had done. Everyday I wish I could go back, everyday I wish I had done what I wanted, and it’s not fair for you, and I will make it up to you. One day. You’ll see. I really hope that you would understand as my age was just not fair and I couldn’t have given you what you deserved. Sometimes I struggle to breathe and I will never be able to forget or forgive my self. I have a necklace that I think of as you. It’s always round my neck. I never take it off. I think of it as you being with me and me being will you all the time, the way it should be. So balloons will fly, every year at this time, for every month we have been apart. Baby I love you more than words can say. I’ll see you soon. Hang on

Dearest mummy