Heartbroken..💔💔

Alright y'all, I'm new to this whole posting thing I guess, so bear with me please....

I apologize in advance for it being so long..

Tonight I lost someone who meant the absolute world to me. My best friend of 10 years had finally decided that I had fucked up one too many times and decided that she was done with me. This girl has been by my side and had my back for as long as I can remember. I have been having an emotional breakdown for the past five hours. Five hours of nothing but crying. I get that I fucked up, I get that, but no one is perfect. She has seen me at my best and loved me, and she's seen me at my absolute worst and loved me even more. She was my rock. She was the one who I could go to about any and everything. I'm lost without her. I don't want to have to live knowing that I won't have my best friend/sister right there by my side facing life's challenges together just like we had always planned to do. My nephew adores her and asks when she's gonna come see him all the time. How do I explain to a four year old that she won't be coming back to see him...at least for a while she won't... I'm at a complete loss you guys.. I love her with everything in me and would kill to have her back in my life.. She has me blocked on all social media and even blocked my number.. All I want to do is apologize and try to make things right with her.. But she won't even give me the light of day to do so..