How to handle this ?

I’m 30 weeks pregnant with a little girl and I feel depressed . I can’t stop beating my self up I feel like I made a bad decision on circumcising my son ( he’s completely fine ) and I feel like a terrible mother . Probably because I had him at 19 and I feel like I have no idea sometimes . Now that I’m having my second I’m just so anxious and I don’t wanna let them down . I don’t wanna feel depressed but I can’t help it . I decided to cirucumsize him because I seen so many males in my family develop problems so to avoid it I had him done. 😓😓😓 I keep beating my self up about my parenting even though my child is completely healthy and not missing anything he needs ... so hard I’m trying to get help but it’s hard ....

( Not literally beating my self up but emotionally I am )