Just needing positive words

Destiny

Sitting at the doctors office right now waiting on the pregnancy test results so I can get on birth control. We've been trying for a year with no luck so now I'm giving up. My periods are so irregular I'm not even sure when to do ovulation tests. I really don't want the birth control but I don't know of any other way to regulate my cycle. I'm looking at all the other pregnant ladies just wishing it was me. 😭😭😭