I did my TTW ending today and I’m heartbroken. Sure there’s women on here who’s been waiting for that BFP longer than I have. I’m sick of waiting for everything. Was put on the depo shot in October to give my ovaries a small break and was told by January your body will be back to normal. I was lied to. When I went back in April to see what we could do just to even get a period I was given more depo to jump start a period, no luck. I was angry that I had trusted this doctor again. It caused me so much pain but I kept telling myself it will be worth it when I get my period and be able to carry our baby. Still waiting for that deep blood period. My body gave me some light bleeding without blood for 5 days thinking ‘hey, it’s a period! My apps all stated something different one said today is the day to test, another say my period is due tomorrow. I have been trying to shh the voice in my head about the cramping, the breast swelling up, the veins on my breast showing nicely, my tits sore to touch for the last two weeks. Watching my temp, which got interrupted due to my two year calling for mommy before my time to check. Which is 100% fine. Have to meet with my doctor again in July. I just wish I could not get my hopes up like I do, or feel the way I do for these 14 days. Yesterday I should have known that the test would have been BFN when I wipe there was a tint of Brown discharged maybe my real period will start and we can get our family complete.

Thanks for letting pour my heart out a little bit.