hey ladies, this month has been hell on earth for me & apparently my body as well. A little back story, my brother struggled with addiction for some time (along with myself). Now being close to a year clean, unfortunately my brother didn't get the same opportunities as me. He recently passed away June 10th. He wasnt just my brother, but my all around BEST friend. My shoulder to cry on, my pillow talk partner, my giggle buddy, my soldier, my real life hero, my gossip partner, my biggest supporter EVER. I never imagined I'd have to walk this earth without him. He was supposed to walk this journey of recovery with me. Since my father passed from addiction as well, he was supposed to walk me down the aisle. He was supposed to do all these things, and now I'm left here without him. my heart literally breaks into two every morning when I wake up and realize this isn't just a horrible nightmare.

Since all of this has happened, my body has taken a huge hit. At first, I literally couldnt control when or where I used the bathroom, it didn't matter if I was asleep, I went. It was super embarrassing but thankfully my partner loves me to no end and never judged me once. (my brother was also his bestfriend) so he knew some of the pain i was dealing with.

AF was from 6/13 - 6/17. All was well. Mind you in the midst of all of this, me and my partner have been trying to conceive for a while now. Kind of gave it up to God these last few weeks because of everything.

Well, about 5 days ago I had light pink discharge and I chalked it up to ovulation (which has never happened before) but did some research and that's what it sounded like along with verification of my ovulation tests.

This is my week of ovulation, and this morning I woke up to pretty much a mini period. Not just pink, but red blood. I have no idea why, and my ovu. test is still blinking.. I just need some reassurance with what's going on.

Do any of you women get ovulation bleeding? If not what are other possibilities? My doctor says with all the stress I'm going through that it's to no surprise but it doesn't help while I'm trying to make babies over here! lol

Someone help, or just say some good stuff to make me feel better and a little more hopeful about the future.

love yall, xo