All Dreams shattered🤕🤕🤕🤕

On April 5 my life was all hearts and smiles when I found out i was pregnant 🤰🏽 for the second time .. First time I had a abortion because of the fact that I was scared .. Scared that I was young , scared that my mom would be mad that I didn’t finish school or so fourth .Fast forward, I met the man of my dream and was TTC for 6 months in and I fell pregnant . I was shock because I couldn’t think I can get pregnant after the abortion 4 years ago ... I hated myself and thought of ways to see where i went wrong from preventing this from happening..

I took two tests because I thought my eyes was playing tricks . I cried and was hyperventilating lol and Because i was shock and happy .. I called my boyfriend and He didn’t believe so i sent these two pictures to him ... Best day of his life ... Than the next day i started cramping , In it normal cramps that I get every so often when my cycle comes and I knew something wasn’t right ... That’s the moment when I knew I had to check on my baby and me .. So i went to the Er and they said it was normal and I was early and my stages so they couldn’t tell where the baby was growing at and for me to get a follow up with my OBGYN ASAP .. In I did that and they said everything was okay but my HCG levels was very low of 425 for me to wait two days . Two days later i came back my HCG level went to 625 and that the baby was growing in the right place that everything was okay and I was on bed rest for a few days because of the cramps .... My worries went away well some .. One day later at night I did the deed and I started spotting .. The scariest moment of my life 😩😩😩, The following morning I was spotting bad ... 😞The day I lost my baby ..

I cut the story short because it was to emotionally and I finally can talk about it completely.. I am currently TTC and waiting for my rainbow baby ... 🤰🏽😇.. God knows what he is doing and when he is ready for me to have a baby then I will be ready ❤️...