Need to vent all you ladies understand this !

I had a MMC back in October first pregnancy and I was and still am absolutely heart broken and now have a fear of ultrasounds ! Well I’m pregnant again with my rainbow 🌈 and I’m

8 + 2 weeks and I just can’t get an ultrasound done I’m just too scared ! I have my referral for it and I just won’t do it ! I’m seeing my dr today because I also have a blood test for my levels but the ultrasound is my biggest fear because of my last experience!!! Ohh ladies I hope you all are reading this and can help me with your own stories anything would be great 👍 xxxx