Problem with family

Sometimes,my mother makes me want to die... I feel often destroyed and I feel sick to be alive, because I always feel like anywhere I am is not my place. She always makes me feel guilty for things that i really shouldn’t feel guilty, for example, I have a good relationship with my Dad, she’s jalous of that and she always tell me that i shouldn’t be in a good relation with him just because she don’t.. I don’t know what to do or say anymore.. and i’m sad about it.. everything i do, is never correct for her, she always tells me what to do or what to say. I tried talking with her.. but she keeps saying that i’m playing the victim and that i’m a mean person. Anyone can help me? I’m going to post this anonymously because i don’t know if her friends have this application. If anyone have advise for me, write me. Thanks ❤️