Hey guys,

So I need some advice with relationships.

I’m 19 years old (about to be 20) and I’ve never had a real relationship before. I’m also still a virgin. I really want to have a relationship, but it’s been my biggest challenge for some reason

I’m the type of person who is very feminine but my interests are more mixed (I like things that most guys like, like sound design, few video games etc. and also have interests in makeup, & art, etc.) After analyzing myself, I’ve come to realize that I may have started to gain more interests that align with the guys in efforts to impress them. But now it’s turned into things that genuinely align with my persona (haha)

I find myself constantly wishing that I could relate to the songs that I listen to or just have practice and knowledge of what it’s like to be in a relationship before college is over. I really don’t want to get out of college and make mistakes with the wrong people that I should’ve made years ago, if that makes sense.

I just don’t know what to do. I’m really tired of not having anyone and I’ve grown very comfortable with my solitude because of it, but I don’t want to be alone forever. I’m almost 20 years old and I’ve only kissed 4 people in my life and, in every case, I’ve been more interested in them than they’ve been of me. Most guys I know think of me of their sister/call me family. I just feel very alone in the situation since every girl I know has had some sort of history with guys.

Thank you for reading all of this, all comments are appreciated :(