Ima get straight to the point. I’ve been looking to apply places, never got calls back besides at the mall. My mom said she wasn’t going to give me a ride so I had to decline the offer & look nearby again. Places nearby won’t hire me because I’m 17, not 18. Now she’s comparing me to other kids my age or 18 who work and go to school and how they got scholarships because they’re smart. I’m top 11% of my class and take all ap classes. Then she tells me she could take me to work & I brought up how she said she wouldn’t and she was saying cause they won’t pay good enough and she doesn’t even know how much they pay. But if it’s somewhere far, she won’t take me. AGAIN, I’m not 18 yet. Then she brought up the fact that I want to go to a university outside of the city. I don’t expect a penny from her, never did but she’s over here telling me if i leave, to not come back, especially if I come back with a belly because that’s all I want my “freedom” for. I told her no. She said, so you’re telling me you’re not going to go out with your friends, get drunk and fuck. Like wtf? I don’t even drink & when I used to, it was always at family events WITH her. I’m so hurt rn. I know the world isn’t easy. I know some days I’m going to hit rock bottom and be tired & stressed. I know some days I’m probably only going to have enough money for a piece of bread at most. I’m not saying I have everything set out for me. I’m not saying ima leave and have a smooth ride but hey, she can’t hold my hand forever either. I want my freedom to grow and learn. Not to fuck and get wasted. I barely even go out & not because I can’t or don’t get invited, I’m just not a party chick but all she does is see wrong intentions from me. Idk what to do.