Lately my boyfriend has been too busy to just keep up with me and I’ve been occupying myself with other things. I realized that I am happy, even without him. He’s been giving me a hard time and I just don’t feel like he can give me what I need anymore. I always feel like I sacrifice a lot just to talk to him when I can, and he kind of just squeezes me in.

I don’t really like being in a relationship like this. Frankly, it makes me distant and isolated from him and pushes me away. I no longer really feel romantic feelings for him, but just like he’s a close friend. I don’t think I love him anymore.

He has nice traits, but I don’t think I just romantically love his traits anymore. The things I used to love about him just doesn’t weigh out the reasons why being with him makes me unhappy. I’ve been so unhappy with my relationship with him multiple times. He just doesn’t understand me and my anxiety and I don’t think he will ever.

Sometimes he insults me and I just can’t help that I am the way I am. My anxiety gets so bad to the point where I needed to see someone for it or I feel suicidal. He just says he doesn’t see why I am anxious, he doesn’t understand why I’m depressed, he just doesn’t understand. I need someone who understands me and who loves me even though I am the way I am, and isn’t so ignorant about mental health.

I honestly don’t know what to do at this point. He’s great, but I don’t know if he is for me anymore. I don’t know if I even love him or not anymore. Maybe I’m only staying because it’s comfortable and I don’t want to go through the talking stage of developing a relationship again.