I’ve been single all 16 years of my life, and I really want a bf. I was never popular in school and I’m very self conscious and don’t think I’m pretty, but I have a really big heart and I just want someone to love and for someone to love me. Do you have any tricks/tips to make me feel not lonely

Addition: I’ve liked this guy for a year now and I really like him. He knows I like him and he’s shown me that I’m beautiful and has been an absolute blessing on my life... the only downside is... he’s dying of cancer. And I’ve told him I love him numerous times, because he’s honestly been the friend I can lean my head on and is always there to give me advice and always is caring and knows how to make me smile. Also I like this other guy who’s going to be a freshman in college, and he’s so sweet, but I have stronger feelings for the the first guy. So I don’t know what to do about that