It’s been a year...

Since I first saw those two lines and discovered you made me a Mama. You opened up love in places my heart didn’t know existed. 1 year of TTC, 2 miscarriages...and a whole lot of missing you. You’d be 4 months old by now...I can’t help but wonder what life would be like if you were here. What you’d look like! Whose eyes you’d have and who’s nose. Tonight my heart, my arms and my house feel empty...I ache to have you both here with me. There’s now holes in my heart in your souls shape.

So, tonight as I sat out by the garden we built on your due date...I’m reminded...beautiful things can grow from ashes. Thank you for showing me a deeper depths of love. Thank you for making me a Mama. I trust fully that you are both with me...and when the time is right you’ll send another angel for your Daddy and I to love.

I can’t wait to hold and hug you one day. Until then, I’ll continue to wait in hopeful expectation, gratitude for your lives, and a forever changed woman...now a Mama. 💕💕