I have a fear of fireworks I don't care for the loud noise and I'm always worried something will go wrong. I don't go with my family to see fireworks because I'm so embarrassed to wear earplugs, I'm 16 it's so embarrassing only little kids wear ear plugs to fireworks. I'm not a baby anymore but I still hate the noise. My boyfriend invited me to his grandma's for fireworks, I accepted and said I would go; he knows I had a horrible anxiety attack last 4th of July he also knows I don't like the loud noise. He offered to bring ear plugs with him for me but I feel so embarrassed to use them. I don't wanna be shoving my ear plugs in right in front of his family when I came specifically for fireworks. I don't want that to be their first impression of me it's so embarrassing that I get so freaked out about fireworks. I wish I could just be normal and watch them with out hating the noise. I feel so embarrassed.