So I had a miscarriage 10 weeks ago now at 10 weeks. Today was a very very hard day for me. Knowing I would have been half way through my pregnancy just broke my heart. Someone I work with baby is due the day after mine would have been so he found out the sex of his baby today and it killed me.

I feel like I take a step forward then 5 back. It does not help that I felt pregnant again and was eager to test soon to find out but I also got my period today. Just to rub it in that little bit more. My friends and family have realised I’m really not coping and want to do everything they can to help. Unlike my partner who actually just said to me it’s for the best I had a miscarriage as we couldn’t afford it. We both work full time and have 2 very healthy wages coming in each month so I don’t know what he is talking about and I hope he enjoys the sofa tonight!

Anyways me and my mum decided we need to say goodbye to the baby so decided to light a candle for the baby. I said I wanted a name for the baby and many people won’t be keen on the name but when I was pregnant my nephew was adamant I was having a girl called Margaret so that’s what I decided to call the baby. we will be lighting our candle this weekend and I can finally say goodbye and hopefully try and focus on myself to make sure I’m the best possible mummy I can be when the time is right. Sleep tight my beautiful angel baby. I miss you every day xx