so i’ve always thought i have some sort of anxiety/ depression illness. in october and parts of july in 2017, i told myself i wanted to die and attempted self harm. i never really thought i was depressed because i had no reason to be. but looking back now i feel like i DID have depression. for example, i was always tired and hating doing my extra curricular activities in school (band, choir, and subjects i normally like) so i feel like i was depressed. i even saw a therapist but as bad as this sounds, i was scared to open up to her, even though that’s what she was there for. ultimately, i think it made me feel more sad. during the winter (2018) i started to feel happy again and like i had hope.

fast forwarding to now, i think i have an anxiety disorder, but i’m too scared to tell anyone. whenever small things happen that are the slightest bit embarrassing, i nearly cry and i feel like its hard to breathe. i think everyone judges me and my head spins. i’ve been getting headaches and stomachaches (i also haven’t been as hungry either) a lot and i dont know if those are symptoms of anxiety, but if they are id like to know. i also started to think about self harm again. its all just so confusing. can someone tell me if its a possibly that i have anxiety/ depression?