Sometimes I regret being married

Not because I don’t love my husband or enjoy being with him, but because I miss living alone. I miss doing my own thing and having the house to myself.

I don’t miss being single or how lonely I would feel sometimes. I love my husband and being with him. I wouldn’t marry anyone else and if our marriage fails I honestly will probably just be single forever.

I can’t help this feeling and it usually crops up when I don’t get enough time to myself. I always feel really guilty about it because, again, I love my husband. I’d be perfectly happy with the house to myself 4 days a week honestly. I usually only get 1 night to myself.

I have started up some projects though with small livestock since we bought land together. It helps me feel more like I have my own spaces since our house is really small and there is no privacy really. But every now and then I get that thought of wishing I lived alone.

I feel like such a bad wife and selfish person when I think like that. I’ve just always been an introvert and a homebody. I’m at my happiest when I’m doing my own thing and no one else is around. But I do love him and I did choose to marry him. I wish I could stop feeling that way just because I don’t get as much time to myself as I’d like...