I shared the other day how our baby got flagged as high risk for down syndrome. We're seeing the mfm tomorrow for a level II ultrasound so still waiting on answers. but I'm just starting to feel like I can't be happy or excited about this pregnancy anymore.

I've had my own health issues. between my last pregnancy and now I had to have my gallbladder taken out, got shingles, went into liver failure, dealt with two terrible abscesses, and finally ended up being diagnosed with crohns. I thought that was all under control to finally get pregnant and now this time around I have dealt with a tooth infection/extraction and then with cdiff bc of the antibiotics. now we're monitoring the baby for possible complications. I'm just terrified now of celebrating and feel like I'm just waiting for the next problem.

This is more ranting than anything but I just feel defeated and broken and like I can't trust my body to do anything right. :-(

on a better more though I will say how happy I am to have this app and see some of your posts. sometimes when I see some of your posts with little complaints, I secretly feel a little happy for you that those are your biggest concerns or problems at the moment. So while I absolutely do not wish nausea or baby shower drama on any of you, I am happy to hear that's the biggest thing going on for you at the moment. and im glad to take part in your posts and jump on your annoying MIL or dumb co-workers comments, if only to distract myself from my own annoying issues.

not sure if that makes any sense and hope no one takes offense to that bc I in no way mean to belittle your feelings or what any of you are going thru. but I'm glad that not many of you will have to experience these scares and these feelings of just being broken.