5 more girls & couples I went to school with, just announced they are pregnant & are adopting or just had their babies.

My 2 children, are no longer here. My heart is breaking at the thought of my kids not with me. I feel like such a failure. My husband isn’t ready to try. Our children weren’t planned, they were birth control babies. I miss my kids more than anything. I’m sitting here in tears, while my husband is quiet. The heartbreak between us both is crazy, but silent. No words. The tears I’m crying right now can’t describe the pain I’m in. I feel like I failed my body, I failed my husband, I failed my children, and I failed myself. I feel like I’m not worth being a mother, like I’m the worst mom in the world. Please help😭

photo from my first pregnancy, (5 weeks 4 days)

2nd pregnancy

13 weeks.