Need to vent.

On here to vent.

So whenever my son was born I decided to stay at my moms because I had a rough delivery that required stitches. I wasn’t really able to do much... i stayed at my moms without my husband (we live about an hour away from my moms) my husband works everyday and couldn’t take off. I’m a FTM so I don’t really know much... and then with me not being able to be on my feet much it just wasn’t going to work out being home by myself all day. I finally came home yesterday (thinking I was perfectly fine) boy was I wrong. About 11 I started having horrible vaginal pain like I couldn’t bare walking because of how swollen it was so my husband rocked him to sleep.. y’all, my husband was complaining that it wasn’t fair that I was in bed and he was up putting him to sleep since he had to work in the morning and be up at 6. Baby boy finally fell asleep and woke up at 4:30 for a diaper change and a feeding. He was mad because he got up to change his diaper, which took about 5 minutes.... after that I fed him and put him back to sleep.

Today I was struggling at home because well I’m not fully healed so I told him it was best that I stayed at my moms for another week and he agreed. What really gets me in my hormonal feels is that that only reason why he agreed was because he could come back home and get sleep while I was staying at my moms. My mom came to get me and me and him had a horrible argument about how I felt like it bugged him to get up at night to feed him.

Am I being the selfish one here or what. Someone please explain to me