Okay, so a little back story about myself. Long story I’ll try to make it short. I would like people to talk to, other than family!

I had an ectopic pregnancy about 8 years ago, my right tube burst, causing a lot of internal bleeding. I was only bleeding internally, lost 3 pints of blood, had 2 pints pumped back into me. Dr said if I didn’t go in that night I would have died from blood loss “thank goodness I finally told myself too”. The dr that did my emergency surgery said he disconnected my right tube so it no longer works. Okay, great there’s that :(.

Okay, so now 5 years later I find out I’m pregnant, it goes great for the most part, I had my son at 35 weeks, the little chunk weighed 7lbs 2oz 5 weeks early 😬😂. He was in the nicu for 2 in half days, we went home the 3rd day 😁.

Then, 3 years and some after he was born we got pregnant again. We found out in July 2017. I went to dr appointment to make sure everything was going okay, from my previous ectopic. Well, my hCG levels were increasing like they’re suppose to 😁, but to early to see anything. Well now I should be far enough to see something, by the 3rd visit, still nothing. I wasn’t bleeding, no pain, nothing just pregnant and wanting to see my little peanut. Well, she told me to prepare for it to be another ectopic, I go see another doctor (she recommended), and he said he didn’t see an ectopic but for sure a miscarriage will happen, alright cool “let me go cry” 😭. So he set me up to go do a scan 2 days from then, I went home feeling perfectly fine thinking hopefully something will happen good. I was laying there and INTENSE pain hit me, just like my first ectopic, it’s a lot of TMI. So I’m crying, can’t hardly walk, puking and pooping at the same time it was horrible and flash backs for sure, I just knew it was all wrong. So much pain I almost had to call an ambulance, but my mom got to first. Got to the hospital, did an ultrasound and for sure it was ANOTHER ectopic. They did surgery thinking it was on my left side, because my first one said my right tube would not work. Well he cut me open (c section size) to see my left tube completely fine, and it’s in my RIGHT. So now my right tube does not work, and I have a healthy left tube.

NOW, I’m pregnant a year later from my last ectopic and I’m terrified! I haven’t told any of my family, just my fiancé. I’m only 4 weeks 3 days, and I just want everything to go great! I’ve been positive the whole time I’ve know, it’s been a week since I got a positive. I don’t see me doctor till the 19th, due to her being on vacation.

I just want this baby to stick, and be healthy. It’ll be my last baby, due to my complications.

I wanted to tell someone my story and be able to talk about my pregnancy, cause I feel like telling everyone in my family jinxes it, and I don’t want to go through it again. :(. So it’ll be a secret for awhile, it’s so so hard keep my excitement in.