I hate my appearance and condition

I hate the way I look. I used to love my golden/green eyes because they were rare and now I hate looking into the mirror focusing on my eyes and all I want to do is cry.

I have Strabismus, or esotropia i don’t even know. I look like a complete maniac, I’m 17 years old and it’s never gotten this bad. Every time I look into the mirror one pupil is completely inwards and directed toward my nose. When i hide that eye, the same happens to my other eye. I hate going into public, I hate looking at people, the ugly laughs, the anxious situations

The only thing I’ve ever loved about myself has turned into my biggest flaw and I look hideous

If you ever see someone with a lazy eye, please just be quiet.