I can’t seem to orgasm when..

I think I’m at a mental blockage right now. I’ve been masturbating regularly for 2 years now, I don’t change it up, I don’t get frisky in new ways with myself and I don’t use my fingers. I use pressure from the water in my shower. It’s soft and warm and I like it. My problem is that when I use fingers I don’t feel anything.. like at all. I don’t feel pleasure, maybe I’m not giving it time, maybe my body is so used to this set method. I don’t know.

But the thing that makes me feel bad the most is my boyfriend has actually never made me come orally, he’s made me get close when he fingers me because obviously I’m attracted to him, and him pleasuring me and me liking it makes me feel good, I get really wet, I feel good about myself and the whole situation but then I never reach it and it’s disappointing. I don’t tell him that I think I have a mental blockage thing with it, because I don’t want to make him feel bad. He really respects me and always wants to do what is best for me, if I ever feel uncomfortable I tell him and he doesn’t get angry or push me. He turns me on so incredibly much, and he makes me very happy. So I hope telling him this wouldn’t .. hurt him.

When we have sex i organism but when we do oral.. nothing. When I pleasure myself with my fingers, nothing. What should I do? Reach climax is a matter of the mind, I get that, but I’m confused on what I need to start thinking. Should I change up how I masturbate?

PLEASE GIVE ME FEEDBACK