Eating disorder

I have a full blown eating disorder at this point. I’ve always had an issue with food but after getting cheated on last year it got really bad. I never feel good enough. Food is always on my mind and how much I eat. Sometimes I’ll go days without eating but then I binge other days. It’s awful and it’s ruining me. I also have really bad anxiety. I just don’t know how to get help. And I finally admitted this to my boyfriend today after not telling anyone. Just needed to get this out. People will say well you’re not skin and bone. Doesn’t mean I don’t have a problem :( I’m almost 27 years old with a 3 year old 5’2 112 pounds and sometimes I wish to be skinnier. I wish I could just be normal 😢