Angry At The One I Love

I’m 17. I met a guy in March of this year and I instantly felt a connection, though I was sort of talking to someone at the time. It turned out he liked me too, and he made that clear. I stopped talking to the other guy and I started getting to know him instead, and we hit it off until... he ghosted a few months months later. I don’t see him around since we go to different high schools and I never got an answer. I was wondering why I’m so angry at him if I genuinely care for him. I’ve prayed for him endlessly. I still keep up with his friends in hopes they’ll tell me something about him someday. I just can’t stop replaying the end in my head and since I ran out of tears a while ago, I just get angry. How do I stop this anger? Is it even directed at him or is it frustration with the situation? I’m overwhelmed