bought some lingerie

growing up i always hated the way i looked and was especially insecure about my body/sex appeal and i always felt ugly. since graduating high school and having my first (now ex) boyfriend i’ve been feeling really good about myself. i felt pretty and sexy and confident for the first time in my life and for a while it felt like all of my insecurities just vanished. well i bought some lingerie (a matching bra and panty set and a bodysuit) and it’s the first real lingerie i’ve ever owned and i was excited but when i put it on i hated it. every issue and insecurity about my body came rushing right back in which was shocking and weird given the fact that lately i had even been feeling good about myself naked. but every tiny flaw i felt about my body came screaming back and i have not felt this bad about the way i have looked in over a year. this is the first time in that long that i’ve looked in the mirror and felt truly ugly so i’m definitely taking it all back but i just don’t really have anyone else to confide this in so i put it here cause i just really needed it out of my head.