So I just saw a friend that I haven't seen in a couple months. Honestly didn't notice him until he jokingly called out, "So did you have that baby yet?" It was that weird pause when I turned around and am clearly not 25 weeks pregnant like I should be... He tried apologizing because he didn't know while I was just trying to say it's ok and brush it off so I didn't start crying at work. Even now I feel like there is a hole in my chest and it is hard to breathe. I hate this and just wish it was a horrible dream... I am sorry for spewing all this self pity. I know we all wish we never had this heartache... That our babies made it healthy and safely into our waiting arms... I just needed to get this out though.