We had a miscarriage in January this year, it took until the beginning of May for the miscarriage to complete. It was a rough time and perhaps I should have had a D&C; but I did not, so we struggled through the tears and pain. Now my sister is almost 4 months pregnant. I’m sure this is affecting my desire to start trying again. I was talking about it with my husband and we had tentatively decided to start in August. However, I’m scared. I’m worried about having another miscarriage. We were also planning a one year anniversary/second honeymoon in October, but should we skip it? He has been more hesitant for a trip since we starting talking about TTC. I’m also starting nursing school in August so we’re going to have a smaller income for a year. I’m so torn between wanting to be pregnant and have a baby of our own and wanting to be prepared financially for one.

I want to start TTC because it could take months or more but I also don’t want to make a dumb financial decision that leads us to disaster down the road. I feel like we need a little fun, some distraction from life, so I really wanted to go on an amazing adventure together before our family grows. But he is the logical one who is constantly worried about finances. My parents would love two grandkids in one year, I know his parents would love their first, but both sides are concerned about the finances of going back to school and/or taking a trip this fall.

Do I just put it all on the back burner and save a little? Or do I enjoy life in the here and now and trust all will work out? I feel the need to mention I’m 37 and worry about time running out as well :/ thank you in advance for any stories or opinions you share!