So my bf recently got his work visa so that’s good news but the problem is he doesn’t want to work a 9-5 job.

What he wants is to be an entertainer of some sort (YouTube career) I’ve never put him down for it but I’ve never really encouraged it, i just let him be and see what he does with it.

But this morning he told me he has to look for a job even though he doesn’t want a regular job and that he’ll just be miserable for the rest of his life because he’d be forcing himself to something he doesn’t want.

My bf has depression and isn’t on any sort of medication because he doesn’t have money and all that.

I started getting frustrated with him and I mean I’m sure partly is because I don’t understand what he’s feeling and can’t wrap my mind around it, but then he started goin on about how he’ll end up killing himself in the future because he won’t get to do what he wants that he won’t be himself.

However I told him he could still try the YouTube thing on the side doesnt mean he has to give it up completely...he says it won’t be the same.

But I mean if it’s something you’d really try to aim for why not put effort in no matter how little time is put into it right?

Then he mentioned marines because he needs to be challenged and the he’ll acquire skill get smart and that there’s a higher chance of death. However he can join because he’s undocumented.

Overall he keeps saying he’s very limited and he doesn’t want to live like that.

I honestly don’t even know what to say or what to feel...like I cried when he has sending me those things.

What am I supposed to do? Yes it’d be nice for him to get a job but knowing how he is I don’t want him being in a rut.

Yes he could just suck it up and he said that as well but eventually I feel as though he’ll just fall apart you know?