I feel so inadequate of being a mom. I love my daughter to death and would literally kill for her. But I’m missing the connection somehow. I’m doing all that I can.., I pump exclusively. I try every now and then and put her on my breast. I interact with her. I get frustrated with her at night when I don’t know why she’s crying. Dad has her most of the times so I try not to interrupt their bonding time and find things around the house to do. I just started going out for a few hours when turned 6 weeks. Yesterday she turned 7 weeks and it was my first time away from her all day. I just feel like I’m not good enough for her. Her dad can do it without me. He has raised his older daughter without her mom and constantly show me that he don’t need me. All I want to do is to be the mom I never had for my daughter. Give her a life that’s way better than mines. Provide for her, show her unconditional love. And right now all I do is sit around and cry. Maybe I am going through Postpartum depression idk...