jealous !

I'm jealous of the women who are married/have a SO and have help around the house . this is my second pregnancy and I'm doing it alone once again , but I know I can do it , for once I would like to see what it feels like to have someone other than my mom to cut the umbilical cord , for once I would like to experience having someone cook for me when I'm to drained and help with my 3 year old, to experience someone getting up in the middle of the night once my son is born and cradle him , change him , and get my breast milk out and feed him . to get up in the middle of the night with me when my 3 year old is having another nightmare. I wanna know what it feels like to actually be able to recover after giving birth and not have to stay with my mom for a couple weeks until I recover enough to be able to care for both of my sons . you ladies are lucky ! I envy you guys who have help all across the board .