why get my hopes up?

Erin • Newly Married ❤️ TTC since Dec 2017

I am taking letrozole to help with fertility but this month got busy and I forgot to pick up my medicine on time. 😔 I am supposedly ovulating today according to glow. We BD last night on the highest percentage chance of getting pg but why get my hopes up? I hate all this! I know God made me the way I am for a reason but I am almost 38 and never have had kids and I just want a joy of my own. My stepdaughter is wonderful and I love her to pieces but I want to give my husband another bundle of love. Just needed to vent and ask for prayers of peace, patience and letting go and letting God. Thanks ladies for listening!