I never thought much about a natural childbirth when we first decided to get pregnant, I just knew I didn't want pitocin, an episiotomy, or a cesarean. Reading up on everything I realized that my best bet for accomplishing those goals were to avoid pain medication as long as possible, if not completely. I've been doing visualizations for months now, preparing myself to cope with everything. I was not at all worried about being overdue because I know going up to 42 weeks is completely normal. I'm 39w2d and because I've had elevated blood pressure twice the past week, nothing dangerous, they are going to start induction Thursday night. I know I have a great team of midwives at a hospital that works hard to not rush things, but I can't help but be incredibly disappointed. I hate needles and iv's but now will have no choice but to have a line in, and we just celebrated being GBS negative so I didn't need it for natural birth! I want to be able to move around, use the shower, user the ball. ... I don't react well to most pain medication and because of my history not having local anesthesia work when I get dental work done, an epidural may not be effective for me and I wasn't planning on getting one. I just need to vent. I'm trying to get these feeling out of the way before tomorrow.