Am I the only one?

eLLee • Emilee. 25. Married. TTC #1. Follow my infertility journey on YouTube down below!

I’ve been married to my husband for 2 years now. We’ve been together for 5. Well within those 5 years, I’ve gained some weight. (Thyroid issues and I became too comfortable). I’m on my period and he keeps grabbing my ass and making sexual comments. I’m annoyed and irritated. Like it really makes me mad that he’s doing that. I know it’s weird but sometimes I just don’t like it. I don’t understand how he finds me still attractive after gaining all this weight. Idk if it’s my hormones because I’m on my period because I don’t get mad all the time.

I just wish he found someone skinnier and prettier than me because he deserves it. I’m really not trying to fish for compliments because I really hate myself. Ive tried to lose weight but it’s really hard for me because of my thyroid issues and my antidepressants make me gain weight.

Us when we first met. I was skinny, 120 pounds. Loving life.

Now. 160 pounds.

When I was a cute thing.

Now. I don’t even like smiling because it makes my face look even bigger.

Am I the only one? Every time I tell my husband how I feel, he gets really mad.