why does so much shit happen to good people?? i could write a whole other paragraph about everything i’ve been through but god i’m only 16 fucking years old, what did i do to deserve this battle i cannot win. no matter how many times i think i’m finally happy life just keeps pushing me back down and the hardest part of it all, is deciding between whether it’s happening because i deserve this and the universe is trying to tell me to just quit already or if i’m supposed to come out of this as a stronger and wiser person. i try and be kind, giving, and compassionate to others and i always try and treat people how i was never treated because i want to be to others what no one was to me. but still no matter how much effort i put into all these people who are supposedly my friends, i’m treated as if i’m a walking disease. i just needed to vent because i don’t have anyone to come to without me seeming like i’m asking for a pity party