Dear best friend

I know we are adults now and you don’t need me to tell you how to be, but I have to share some thoughts. You have always told me how sacred your virginity was because of your religious Mormon views and when I had lost mine, you were very upset. So upset that we didn’t talk for a little bit because you couldn’t fathom the thought about me giving it away. Now I come to find out you lost yours to a guy who manipulated you. A guy with multiple children from different woman who has been divorced twice, but was still actually not officially divorced from his wife. You let yourself. He manipulated you into thinking that having sex was the way you showed him you loved him. He manipulated you telling you that he knew what you wanted even more than you did. That he “loved making love to you” You gave yourself completely away to him and then he went back to fuck his ex wife. You were shattered. It hurts me that you lied to me. So many times. You even used me as an excuse for him. I’m upset bc all the pieces came together now. I’m pissed off about so many occasions that you lied to me. I don’t care that you had sex. I care about how you lied to my face multiple times and think I’m stupid. I’m upset and disappointed. I love you, but this is really pushing me away. I’m hurt. Now you’re in my wedding with the guy I lost my virginity to. I don’t know how to feel bc I’m feeling betrayed. You’re my maid of honor and you don’t even know how I’m feeling right now. I love you and you having sex doesn’t change who you are to me, but the fact that you have constantly lied to me about so much is hurting me. I’m angry.