I am 40. No matter how much I lie and say I’m 37-38 the truth of the matter is I am 40 years old! I had my first child in my mid 20’s, my sweet baby Jay was the best baby one could ask for. I took some time to enjoy him and then refocus on my career and in the blink of an eye he was 7. We tried and tried to have another baby and after a few tragic miscarriages I finally gave up. Last July I discovered I was pregnant. Sadly I was in such fear of losing another one I never really felt at ease in my pregnancy, I dreaded every wipe expecting to see blood. Then on March 3rd he was here my second little guy. Our little miracle. He is now 4 months old and we are just starting to get back into the swing of things. Did I mention in 40? Well I have baby fever something awful, which is strange because I have a baby; which should technically quench my baby thirst. Shouldn’t it? But I want one more. Am I crazy to want to squeeze another one in so soon - I mean my time is limited if not now then when? Am I pushing my luck?