Back when i was in 13, this guy who was a year older then i was, I’ll call him peanut.

Peanut and I were watching my friends soccer training at 5-7pm.

And he asked me to go to a park with him, that was next to the soccer field.

And I agreed since I didn’t know what I was in for.

He pushed me down, and pulled my arms above my head and leaned over of me. Using his body weight to pin me down.

I tried to push him off, but it was useless, as he’s a lot bigger then me.

He then said

“If you try to leave again, or tell anyone, I will find you, and tie you up, so I can fuck you whenever I want”

This plays over and over in my mind.

At this point fear Paralysed me. Everything went numb and I just wanted to die.

As he continued to steel my innocence, he used his other hand to squeeze my breast, doing so crushed my chest, and gave me internal bruising on my left lung. I wasn’t able to take normal breaths for 3 months.

After the incident he threatened me to tell people that I liked and wanted it. Or else he would stab me.

(He would also punch/kick me whenever I said/did something he didn’t like)

I was trapped.

Since then, I found the courage to break up with him.

And the police came to the conclusion that IT WAS FUCKING CONSENSUAL!?

Because there was no evidence of the threats??

And the people they interviewed were the people I told I liked it. And they said that I ‘changed my mind’ after we broke up!!

WHAT THE FUCK!?!?

So the police said that I’m just an angry Ex!?!? (Not their exact words, but still)

Also

-he didn’t wear a condom, so I didn’t have the time to run away then.

-I didn’t get pregnant from it, he didn’t cum inside of me.

-I did get therapy, but it didn’t help.