So I was in a toxic relationship for about 2 1/2yrs. (I was really stupid in advance) My ex would call me a bunch of mean things such as “bitch”, “cunt”, “fat ass”, etc. Since that started I really let myself go and I blame myself for not leaving sooner. I actually thought he was the guy that I was going to marry someday but thank God that didn’t happen. Well we live and we learn right? Before I got with my ex I use to weigh about 158-162.

I was a very happy person and I was happy about my body. At the time I was in cheer & in basketball. (These are some throwback pictures)

After I let myself go I went into this very dark place where all I would do is eat and be depressed (this actually sucks), as of today I weigh 204 this is the heaviest I’ve ever been and I’m not proud. I would hardly ever take pictures. I hated when we would do family gatherings because everyone would notice that I’ve gained so much weight and of course my family can be assholes and they would call me out. I would cry myself to sleep every night. I was getting called a fat ass by my own “bf” at time as well as my family. I didn’t have much support to help me get out of the dark stage.

Recently I started following some fitness people on instagram and that gave me motivation to get back in shape. I enrolled at a gym and I will start my new journey I’m doing this for myself, to prove everyone who said that I would stay fat my whole life. My goal is to weigh at least 144 ish-155 ish. I’m aware that this is gonna be a long process but I’m up for a challenge! It’s time for a change y’all