Help!! Feeling so insecure 😟

In January I had a light positive test that never got any darker over time. I had an ultrasound at 5 weeks which showed nothing, and ended up miscarrying over the next 3 days 😞

On the 4th of July I had a really strong BFP at 10dpo (like, BRIGHT pink line), and it has gotten darker over the last week (see pics). I also have extremely sore boobs, and am completely exhausted. My symptoms are good, but I had those last time too and it did t work out. Anyways, because of what happened in January, I’m feeling really insecure and so worried that it’s not real, like what if this pregnancy is empty too.

I know I need to give this to God, because either way there’s really nothing I can do about it, but does anyone have any advice on staying positive? My drs office won’t even see me until I’m 8 weeks. They don’t want to bother if you’re going to have an early miscarriage.