6 weeks and one day... march 9th 2019

On the 30th of June I was supposed to get my period... on the 4th of July I got two lines one faint but very much there... it was he or she. I knew that in 48 hours that faint line showed get darker I wanted my clear darker line... instead I got one line? Where did you go? I knew that wasn't meant to happen I knew deep down that something was wrong... I kept taking tests four in one day and I could only see a really really faint line on one the rest negative. I still had hope, I have all the symptoms still! So very very emotional, so tired, my boobs hurt, my nipples tingled? I felt like someone had a hover that sucked up all my energy... but that was okay it's my two lines. On Thursday the 12th of June I knew something was wrong I had no symptoms other than extremely painful cramps, I was very very stressed because I knew. On Friday the 13th of June I knew it was happening, I asked my boyfriend to go shop and get me a pregnancy test. Denial. He came back and I went into the bathroom before I could pee on the stick I felt it, I felt the blood drip. I still peed on the pregnancy test. I needed to know that it was definitely over. One line. I don't want to feel the blood spill down my leg in the shower and I don't want to be in so much pain anymore. I don't know if chemical pregnancies are called a miscarriage but I've definitely lost something... someone and it may have been so very tiny but I felt it and I very much feel it now.