I feel like a burden. Rant!

So I might be feeling too sensitive about these things but i wanted opinions. I go to school and work. School is a 45 min drive and work is a 15 min drive. I don’t have a license or car (a mistake but I’m fixing it now). I go to school by bus which is a 3 hour commute but I’m okay with it because I’m trying to better myself. Work is a 2 hour bus drive however my schedule is unstable.

I live with my boyfriend and he used to take me to school (only two times) but said that the drive was too long so we decided I take the bus. Totally fine with it. However I’ve noticed for work he hates picking me up and dropping me off. He says he’s not used to it and we don’t have gas money (however every time I visit my mom she offers ~$60 in gas money and that’s every month or so). I told him we’re good on gas and I have a job but then he says it takes a toll on his car. He says he’s not used to revolving his life around me and he hates that he has to drive to get me and go back and then come back and pick me up.

However, the initial plan was that we were to go to school together at the same time on the same day?? He got to school late and they dropped him so he decided not to go (we started different dates). So now I’m going to school without him on the bus.

He’s been making excuses recently and messaged me a lot with stuff saying “I can’t pick you up I have no gas money”.

I’m not his responsibility I know but I asked him several times even pleaded for him/his family to teach me how to drive. They said no because I don’t have a license (understandable). So far I’ve been driving with anyone who is kind enough to teach me.

(Also the reason why I don’t have a license is that my mom is very busy and a but neglectful. A reason why I moved out but she helps when she cans)

I have a permit test next week and I have to go around and ask for a car. I’ve been saving money for a car as well.

I just don’t understand how you have someone you care about and you don’t want to pick them up? Isn’t that weird?? Idk I’m just frustrated even though I know it isn’t his fault I just needed to rant.

Sidenote: my bf obviously doesn’t go to school or work.

EDIT: we live together and he tried teaching me once but he’s very impatient. Also it may be due to the fact we don’t have gas money but my mom tries to give us $40 sometimes when we visit every month plus he has no shame to ask for $5 from his mom to drive to his friends house