My husband and I have been through so much. he's cheated on me multiple times.. (several years ago) He had an Addiction to Pornography that we had to go to counseling for.. He just hurt me... A lot!!!

But, me being me. I forgave him and WANTED to make this marriage work.

It's been several years since he's done anything like that. He works hard. gives me everything materialistic in this world a girl could want. He's loving and affectionate. He doesn't go places unless I go with him.. I mean.. He's a freaking dream!!!!!

HOWEVER........

Sometimes the past will haunt me. I find myself sad or depressed over what he's done.. I'll find myself going through his phone... only to find NOTHING.. every time!! He's been PERFECT.. And I'm the worst!!!! Why can't I just forget?????